Discovering NPD and Realizing You Aren’t the Issue
Discovering NPD, Narcissism Personality Disorder, has been like having ice-cold water dumped over my head. I feel that my life, since meeting my husband, has been an absolute lie. For so many years I allowed him to blame me for everything and I believed that everything was my fault. I allowed him to make me feel worthless, unworthy, forgetful, confused, anxious, depressed, crazy, fat, a leech, a mooch, a recluse, anti-social… and just so many other things that my brain still cannot entirely wrap around. He told his affair partners that I had bi-polar disorder and my instability was the reason he was still married to me. That one blew my mind. I have no mental or personality disorders or anything other than depression and anxiety caused by the nightmare life he created.
I am not a victim. Any time I’ve ever brought anything up to him, he has always said, “Oh, let’s play victim” or “You have such a victim mentality” or “you poor martyr”, so I want to be very clear…I AM NOT A VICTIM.
a l m o s t
destroyed
me.