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At Least I Don’t Beat You
We are taught at a very young age that abuse is visible. If someone has a black eye, busted lip, bruises, etc…they could be the victim of abuse. What we aren’t taught, is that abuse isn’t always visible. That the absolute worse type of abuse doesn’t leave marks that are seen by the naked eye. Emotional, mental, and psychological abuse is so VERY damaging and often goes left unnoticed because we aren’t aware of what we should be looking for. The last 6+ years of my marriage was pure H E L L. And when I would tell him how mean he’d become and how very unloved and unwanted…
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You Are Not The “New” Me
It has taken me such a long time to regain some semblance of who I am. I love myself. I love the person I have become coming out of such a horrific situation. I literally lost half of my life with an abusive narcissistic psychopath. He brought me to my absoulte lowest and while I lay there suffering…he allowed his affair partner to kick me repeatedly with details of their 4+ year affair. She shared screenshots of snapchat messages between them, places they f*cked, how they’d be f*cking while I’d be messaging him wondering why he was so late coming home. How she videoed herself making out with her roomate…
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Narcissistic Baiting…Who Knew This Was a Thing
Raise your hand if you’ve never heard of Narcissistic Baiting. Okay. My hand is up too. While I experienced this, pretty much daily, I had NO IDEA there was a name for it and that this very thing happened to other people. It blows my mind every time I learn that I am not alone in what I went through. The trauma, abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, and what is apparently called, Narcissistic Baiting. Narcissistic Baiting is when the narcissist instigates you. It’s when they do something that they know is going to trigger a response. You have become so frustrated with all of the lies and manipulation and constantly being told…
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Discovering NPD and Realizing You Aren’t the Issue
Discovering NPD, Narcissism Personality Disorder, has been like having ice-cold water dumped over my head. I feel that my life, since meeting my husband, has been an absolute lie.
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I Predicted the Storm but Never Envisioned the Aftermath
There was no solace to be found, no comfort in the disaster that was approaching. There was no escaping the inevitable as she watched the world around her crumbling into nothingness.
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Breathing Underwater – How Not To Drown
I have been drowning for quite some time now in this situation. I keep trying to breathe underwater as I struggle and pull at anything I think might be able to save my marriage and my family. I’ve grabbed for every thing I could think of.